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[Mar. 6th, 2007|09:14 am] |
IM FUCKING BACK BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM BACK!!!
IM BACK!!!! |
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[Jan. 30th, 2007|01:40 pm] |
hello. yes today was a pretty good day at first and than it just went down hill.
my teeth started hurting right before lunch really really bad i was freaking out it hurt like crazy. i couldnt handle it. but than i was alright. and now i just feel like shit. im drousy and kinda sad. MY mom goes to court this week. ITs really sad because shes not going to get anything and she ahs nothing. I really wish i could help. BUt you know as sad as it really is she deserves it. she cant keep going threw life the way she is. she needs to startt o take control of her life she needs to fix what shes done. it hurts me to know what shes going to be going threw. and kody and konner. i dont want them to end up having any problems in life. i dont want them to get raised wrong and start doing shit that i do and travis. because i know right now that kody knows about me and travis because i just do. hes seen pipes and bongs ans shit. its sad, i love that kid so fucking much its unbelievable. it makes me so sad when i think of all this shit. My mom is not a stable person right now. And i just keep remembering when she was drunk and telling me she was going to kill herself. and that she already tryed. that scares me so much. i know she might not be a person that can acomplish that. but i think anyone can when ehre faced with enough stress. and right now her head so is over loaded. i can just see it in her eyes. shes doing anything she can right now to try and keep herself happy. by going out and meeting mena nd drinking everynight. pretty soon she'll be an alcoholic. she'll end up with liver damage because of all the pills and energy drinkgs she takes. thats not safe. she puts alot in her system. I with her family would mean more to her then anything. because i think this would all be alrigght if that was the case. you know. but whatever. i have to try and stay strong because i cant let that bring me down. its just so hard not to when it feels like im left wtih nothing eather. and where is amber going to live. shes going to leave me. im not going to have her on my side anymore. i cant have that shes like my sister. you know. and whats goig to happen to travis hes going to be all fucking depressed and shit more than he is right now
. hes not happy.
kayla just broke up wtih his punk ass. and than he goes out and does that? you know. whats after that> fucking death. when i look at him i see it and tahts why i was so scared on friday. he was freaking me out so fucking much. i couldnt take it.
damn it just feels like my whole family is falling apart. theres liek nothing holding us together at all. I hate it. id give anything to have us together again. i know how amber feels. she has nothing besides me and her half daddy. which im not even there anymore. the onyl person that is keeping me together right now is my dad. i dont know what i would be doing right now if i didnt have him. But i still feel as if this is a mistake that i would be in the same place even if i hadent moved. I still smoke and drink and shit you know. im just moved to a diffreint house. and new freinds. i really really really miss my old freinds though. this weekend made me really really really want to go back. because i had so much fun with them, and thats about all. but tehre just friends. illmeet more i have to start thinking mroe about my life and what im doing than jsut partying and shit. but i need it still. to keep me happy and from going insane. because someitmes i really feel as if im going insane. but have faith in me guys . i knowi can make it right? |
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[Jan. 24th, 2007|08:01 am] |
ok so like im really high right now.
and this world is fucking crazy and im just rightigng down that i feel should be on.
this peace of papaer, ans i dont care if i spell words wrong ull try and answer my
cecret guesting from the dark yonder roals.
haha rolls.
your all rool.
rool some more pankake housees.
no u role.
i you.
were cool.
this highness is awsome.
hahaha i love it.
im really having a hard time typing .
hey its getting alittle bit better acntualy im typing treally really fast right now and its really cool.
what if the other day i saw a fite fyling there.
hey gues what now anmanda is in my study hall and shes sitting right next too me. isnt that awsome.
yea i think it is.
i miss my frend gracie .
she used to be so much fun.
we used to like have a blast you know lol.
and get supper ripped and just laugh and make noises and do stupid shit andnot even care .
who was listning or not.
it was the best.
hmm. but eya .
i dont have freinds liek that anymore.
all my old freinds were like that. we would just bullshit and goof around and we all were like the same as freinds as people./
and now there gone. no ciera . no amber. no lisa . no gracie. no sam.
no trsvis. no no one. now i have firends that arnt even like that.
ill do something wierd and theyll think im crazie. and than i feel wierd.
and than i change.
and i dont act like that/
now ook what i have done.
im going to for get who i was.
and turn into someone else.
thats not good .
i cant do that.
thats now what human being are supposto be like.
were suppoto be freindly and love everyone equaly.
instead of thinking less of anoother person.
think were all the same.
than no matter what wierd dhit i say or do . wont matter.
that would be the life. |
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[Nov. 21st, 2006|11:11 am] |
Dear, judge Steinberg
Threw out my 17 years of being alive, there’s a lot that I regret. I was a child that went to school with a bowl of marijuana. I knew I shouldn’t have and that I was wrong, but I did anyways. I want you to know first hand that I respect you. I have no hate only fear of you. You have the ability to make a life changing decision for me.
I came into your court room on sep. 18th with out my community service done. I disrespected you in your own office. You gave me a chance by giving me community service and I threw it in your face and didn’t do it. There is no excuse either. You made the right decision when you gave me the final fee of $ 6,342.
I want you to know that you’re doing your job, and doing it good. There are a lot of kids out there that have changed their lives after stepping into your courtroom. Some kid’s would be pissed off and hate their lives if gotten a $6,342 ticket. Instead, I woke up and realized that I made a mistake; I have to pay $ 6,342 until I can be a responsible adult and have my license, and possible jail time. I know you don’t have time to read about a 17 year old girl who was irresponsible, and wants a second chance, but I have one life and I want to live it. There’s a lot that my license is holding me back from; getting a job, a ride to school some days, and going out and achieving my goals. I would appreciate it so much if you reopened my case and gave a second thought, on giving me a chance at becoming all I can be. I realized that living in Brookfield was the wrong decision for me. I made a choice to move to Reeseville and live with my dad on a farm. There I have responsibilities to attend to everyday. Right now, im am raising four calves, and ill be selling them in the spring to raise money. Its hard work but it needs to be done. I made a change in my life, and now im am doing really good. Thank you judge Steinberg I appreciate it.
Please contact me, Sara Reynolds or my Father, Kurt Reynolds when you have a chance at 1262 441 0082.
Thank you very much,
Sincerely Sara Reynolds, |
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[Nov. 20th, 2006|11:13 am] |
There are times when only a Mother's love
Can understand our tears,
Can soothe our disappoints
And calm all of our fears.
There are times when only a Mother's love
Can share the joy we feel
When something we've dreamed about
Quite suddenly is real.
There are times when only a Mother's faith
Can help us on life's way
And inspire in us the confidence
We need from day to day.
For a Mother's heart and a Mother's faith
And a Mother's steadfast love
Were fashioned by the Angels
And sent from God above. |
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[Nov. 9th, 2006|11:09 am] |
The Flag of Courage
I am the flag of courage
so carry me with pride.
I shall make the final statement
to the moment when you tried.
There are many coloured ribbons
for the deeds that are done.
Many are the medals
for the battles that are won.
None greater than the flag of truth
that you are asked to bear.
May those who stand beside you
take pride in what they share.
Let faith and honour hold me
to the courage of your name.
And I will go forth boldly
your courage to proclaim.
Edward J. Costello |
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